DNF

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This was an absolute shit show. This WOD was to be done pyramid style.  So, after you worked your way down the list to do the front squats, you’d move back up to the swings and work your way all the way back up to the double unders.  The good news was, we’d only have to front squat once.  The bad news was EVERYTHING ELSE.

Rx for women was 16kg and 95# (no rack, because of course not!).  I Rxed.  I didn’t even sub rowing for the 400m runs, which I pretty much always do because of my bum knee.  But, when you’ve just finished rowing 60 goddamned calories, the absolute last thing you want to do is row more.

There was a 25 minute cap.  I did not finish.

I made it as far as finishing the second/final 60 calorie row, and that was a wrap.  I’ve never DNFed on a WOD, since joining this gym.  And, I do not like it!

The September challenge has been very so-so for me.  My eating has been *almost* the way I outlined, with me getting looser than I really should be, on the weekends.  I did, however, order some meals from a paleo meal delivery service, which should be arriving tomorrow, and which should help me to reel things in.  More on that to come.

Workouts have NOT been where they need to be.  I’ve been averaging 2-3 a week, instead of the intended 4.

It’s a vicious cycle of being out late a few nights each week, because of evening screenings I have to go to for work– which also means I can’t work out after work.  But then, see, I’m too tired to get up to work out in the mornings, because I was out late!

I’ve got to figure this out, because this is going to be my reality for the foreseeable future.  I’m going to have late nights, and I’m going to have to learn to drag my ass out of bed to work out in the mornings, at least 3 times per week.  More, if I don’t want to make up workouts on Saturdays and Sundays.

Anyway, the struggle continues.  But, at least I don’t have to do any more fucking front squats today.

#JuicyInJune Day 8

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Coconut flour pancake + eggs and avocado = HOTSA HELLZ YEAH for under 500 calories!

This morning was a HIIT workout, which was fairly miserable.  It was very nice to come home and have a dope ass breakfast, afterward.  I’d planned to do a double today, but decided against it, since I already have a double lined up for tomorrow– and one of those will be 1RM testing for my deadlift, followed by metcon.  That’s going to be taxing.

My energy has been a lot better, the past week.  I’ve been sleeping more or less through the night, and I feel pretty good in the morning.  Throughout the day, my mood is also pretty good.  But, I’m still not quite where I want to be.  There’s just an overall haziness, a cloak of slight drowsiness that seems to plague me all day, even when I’m feeling “alert.”

My hunch is that it’s parasites/a parasite.  I know, I know, *shudder*.  But, the truth is, we ALL have parasites, pretty much all the time.  I’ve wanted to do a parasite cleanse, but I have an allergy to tree nuts.  Black walnut hull is one of the main things you need to do a parasite cleanse, so I’m not really sure how to go about this.

A year and a half ago, I was about 5 months into Nutrition Response Testing (I no longer do this; stopped sometime last fall because I’d failed to see progress in several months).  I won’t go too far into my experience and thoughts on that here, because it will completely derail what is meant to be a quick update.  But, maybe for another day, another post.

Anyway, one day around my 5 month mark, I woke up and I would’ve sworn I was CURED.  My energy and mood were incredible.  I had such clarity.  I even felt like my vision was sharper.  And, I’d lost weight, which I hadn’t been able to do on my own for a year, maybe longer.  I just felt like a completely new person– no, even better, I felt like my old self!

But then, after a week or less, it went away.  The energy and overall joie de vivre that I’d felt was gone, and I went back to just feeling “okay” at best, and “not great,” the rest of the time.  I’ve tried to reclaim the way I felt that week, ever since– indeed, it’s why I wasted my time in Nutrition Response Testing for over a year afterward.  The feeling never did come back.

In retrospect, I’ve come to believe that I may have passed a parasite, just before that Magical Week.  It’s really the only explanation I can come up with.  A major part of the first phase of Nutrition Response Testing is killing shit.  Fungus.  Bad bacteria.  Parasites.  So, I was on high doses of supplements, at the time– many of which were aimed at killing shit that was harming my body.

I think that the supplements successfully killed a parasite, or something, and that was why my body was able to thrive again.  I think the feeling didn’t last, though, because there was/is more work to be done.  Something else needs to be killed.

So, yeah, now, I want to figure out a parasite cleanse that won’t send me to the hospital in anaphylactic shock.  It’s on the “to do” list.  For someone who exercises, eats well and gets adequate sleep, I should have SO MUCH ENERGY.  But, I don’t.  And it fucking sucks.